In the last couple of weeks alot of things have been happening around here.Some good but mostly stress. I said this year I was not going to post the negative things in life but how do you write about life if you skip out on the negative that eventually makes you stronger?

Alex is doing much better. No chest pain right now which is good. He will have to be followed by a cardiologist with a yearly check up. He has atrial rythms which I couldn't get the nurse to pin point what the long term problems could be. I know in the back of my head there will be some but for now he has the ok to be a kid and play as much as he wants. So for now that is what we will take. I don't want to deal with the other.

Malcolm did pretty good on his SATs as a sophomore so we have been getting all kinds of emails from colleges. Now if I can only get him to get the grades that go with his brillance than we wouldn't have to worry about paying for college.

Work has been very stressful. They are working us more short staffed then before and now we are also a tele floor. Nights seem to drag on and the stress from work tends to come home with me. Especially when I am in charge. I am at the point of not wanting to be in charge anymore. Several of us are the only problem is that if 3 of us quit doing charge at night and there is only 4 that do it that leaves 1 person and they will bring up another idiot from 4th floor to be charge. We all decided to hold off as of now. But I am thinking the liability is getting to great that I don't want to do it.

I never thought that even after graduating and working I would still be so stressed in the money department. Between medical bills and hours that get cut at work due to lack of patients. Then to come home and everything here it is taking a toll on my health. I have been sick for probably 7 weeks or so. Just as I think I am feeling better the bottom drops out and I feel crapy again. Since the new year started I have maybe been to church myself once. Which is not good for my family or me.
You know how when stress gets so high that you want to go hide. Usually I handle stress very well. For some reason the last several months it has completely ran me over. I am trying to find an even keel for it. Mom living with us makes it hard to just have family time just me and the kids. I don't do well with others living with us. Don't get me wrong. I am so grateful for the help she gives me especially me working nights. She helps transport kids to their activities they may not be able to do if she wasn't around. She watches them at night so I can work. But I am just not meant to live with anyone else. This tends to boil over into our relationship. Which totally Sucks!
I have been trying to find a cheaper house to move to try and off set my stress some. Do you know how hard it is to do that when the district likes to play change the boundaries every other year. The kids don't want to change schools ( I can't blame them) the one area I am finding homes in is the area that the district moves around alot. So criteria.. Has to stay in Summit district and preferably Howard.. Lets see can we say needle in a haystack..Our lease is up in May and if we don't find something soon then I guess we will be staying here for another year. I like this house but the electric bill alone is the amount of some peoples house payment.

I have a repair guy in my bathroom at this time and have a million other things for them to fix too. But who has the time.So today instead of finishing sleeping I am giving that up so the upstairs bathroom will work right..
Next the roof is to be repaired and the ceiling where the rain came in to the house in the kitchen and the ceiling in the livingroom where the bathroom tank breaking upstairs leaked downstairs..catching my drift? Chaos.. But at least we will have a working toilet up here right?:)