We have had the first week of school football tryouts,band tryouts, and now volleyball tryouts. Wow what a growing time for everyone. In the last post I talked about how Eve decided to tryout for Volleyball. She was really excited but as the week went on she started feeling like she wasn't good enough to make it. But I kept encouraging her to continue to try. She said she didn't want to make it but I could tell she really did.
"sometimes being a mom and pushing our kids to try things and better themselves even in failure ends with alot of heartache and tears...All you can do is pray they understand that you do it out of love... wish I could save them the heartache and tears.. But I know they will grow.."
She had her last day of tryouts today and well it didn't go so well. She didn't make it. She didn't even want to stay and look to see if she made it. Cole and I made her look. I wonder if that was a bad thing. Sometimes though you need that reality. Right? Trust me there has been times I have tried out for things and didn't make it. Or I was too scared to even try. I want her to believe that she can do anything she wants. But that does come with failure too. You need the failure to be a better person. I asked Cole if I was wrong for encouraging her to tryout. He reminded me how 7th grade he made the C team and how upset he was to make that team. But now he is on the Freshman A team starting defense. Sometimes you just have to push yourself. But right now I have a child crying her eyes out and not liking me much. So where is the boundary of being too pushy and doing it for their best interest?
This is such new charted territory for me. Where is my handbook?
Last night at the Varsity football game the stepmom showed up. I was about knocked out of my seat when I saw her. Really? In how many years they have never come to any of Malcolm's stuff. What I found out is everyone knew she was coming but no one told me.. What's up guys? It's not that I don't want her there it's just I don't know I would have liked to know not to be caught off guard. So this one band parent starting asking me about the kids and mom pointed to Alex who was sitting at first by his friends that were sitting in front of their stepmom she then called him up to her. So the lady asked who is he sitting by. I said his stepmom. She said Oohhh! You know the way people do when they automatically think something bad. So she was asking which one was Malcolm. I showed her and her and her mom said how good he was. But then she said so he is the kinda chubby one.. What really? Is there not a better way of saying a guy that is 6'2 and husky is that size. Then she goes on to say oh so he takes after your body shape... WHAT! Are you kidding me? Ok yes I am "overweight" All I could say is hey I haven't always been this way. And smile. What the heck do you say. I have never met this woman ever in my life. I don't know if my friends would have said that to me. Malcolm said she is inept socially. I guess I just think she well I just keep that to myself. And this is after losing 25lbs this summer. I was so glad I was sitting by Maria last night. I walked back over to Maria and told her. I could only laugh. I so wanted to just put her in her place but remember my motto I am trying to be better than that..
That basically summed up on how my week was going. My alternator is acting up and I need a new catalytic converter that was the news I get on Thursday.. I wake up this morning with the worst headache I have had in I don't know how long. When my headaches get this bad I worry that other issues are coming back. I just don't know if that is something I can handle right now is to have health problems.
I think the thing that makes the weeks worth dealing with when it gets crazy is the football games. Cole had his first one Thursday and they WON.. I am so proud of him and how hard he has worked to get to where he is. Then the varsity game last night listening to the band and the clanking of the pads.. And yes they won..WOOT WOOT>>
This is going to be a great season to grow if we can just make it through the times of stress and heartache we will be much stronger..
1 comment:
Wow, you have had a crazy week, nothing new for you though, right? Poor Eve, I bet she did fantastic, it's just they only have so many spots. That's hard! Hey, she still has choir though, and she's president, right? And, I can't believe that woman said what she said to you! Although, these days, nothing surprises me with how rude people can be!!!! Hope you have a better week!!
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