Loss

The last couple weeks have insanely busy with work and the kids schedules. Malcolm left for EFY on Sunday. This week the schedule has gone something like this.
Cole football at 8am.(thankfully a friend takes him)Eve has volleyball camp at 745am. Alex football workouts start at 845am. Then to pick up Cole at 10am. Eve at 11am and Luckily Alex gets a ride home from workouts.
So the idea of sleeping the day after you work at night doesn't quite work out. Sebastian has been bored out of his mind without the kids being there. Even though they get there by 1115 or so he thinks that is too long.
This week has brought a new prespective on life and choices. A dear friend lost her husband this week. He was killed after a dissagreement with a acquintance in their home. My heart just sank with the news of his death. We have been so fortunate to have his mom as my kids teacher and his wife as a sweet friend. His son has been one of Sebastian's closest friends since Kindergarten.
His death has been an eye opener that we aren't guaranteed tomorrow and to hold family and friends close. Sunday at church it hit me really hard. More because I was so worried how my friend and her sweet kids were going to deal with his death. The kids have a good support system Grandparents, friends, their mom. But I so worry about Kim and how she will be able to cope. I can't imagine the pain and loss she is feeling and how someone gets past that.
Malcolm was so sweet as he sat next to me he put his arm around me as tears filled my eyes I just couldn't help it my heart just broke for my friend. After sacrement meeting he gave me the biggest hug. It was so sweet. How many 17 year olds will do that for their mom.

The funeral service was very sweet and you could feel the love of those in the room for the family. Even as I write this I can feel tears feeling up as I worry about my friend. We as a family have been praying for their family every night. It is very sweet to hear Sebastian pray for his friend and their comfort. The guy at the end of the service made a point I thought was well said. In the weeks, months, and years when you think about needing to call those left behind do it. This is God working through all of you. It is not some random thought but one placed there from God to reach out to others. How well said..
Now for us all to remember that.
The kids are all gone for the rest of the week and I work through Sunday night but really wish my kids were going to be home. I know crazy since I will be sleeping when they are home. I just really have been missing them when they are away. maybe it is just this whole situation with the death. I don't know.
That has really been the week. Working now wishing I was at home in bed.
Even being at work I can't turn my head off thinking about things and wishing I could slow life down a little so I can enjoy my kids more. One more year and Malcolm won't be in high school.. So not looking forward to that.