Life around our house is forever changing. Sometimes it is too much to keep up with. Some days you run and don't enjoy the time with each other because of the busy schedule. I am trying really hard to remind myself to slow down.
Ever since I was a teenager I have dealt with having Chronic Fatique Syndrome. Most people say oh yeah I am tired all the time too. Having CFS is different. There are time you literally need to go to bed and sleep for 24 hours to just be back in the world when most people could get 8 hours of sleep and be fine. It seems to be worse when I have alot of stress in my life. But usually I can go to bed and sleep and be ok. My kids never say too much but I don't know if they truly understand why I am having to sleep. Working nights is probably the worst thing for it. But it financially makes things better for my family so I can spend more time with them.
I went to work the other night and Sebastian called me around 1230 am saying " Mommy I can't sleep I am having bad dreams." Those are the nights I hate working nights. It just makes my goal to get to a financial place where I can take a pay cut and work days even more important. So decisions have been made this week to decrease bills and cut things that I have been sitting on for a while. Since then my stress level has changed. Even with today being payday it was different my stress level of paying bills and needing to buy all those extras that come up with kids starting school and sports. Something was different.
Last night reality of school starting and having 3 in high school is kicking in. A senior, sophomore, and freshman... OH MY! I sat through a football meeting and volleyball meeting and was wow my kids are really growing up. It was different with Malcolm. Yeah it made me realize he was growing up but he is suppose to he is the oldest but when you start seeing the others follow behind and grow up I just want to hold a big STOP sign up. NO MORE GROWING UP!!! NOT YET! I AM NOT READY!!!
Enjoying those moments of having all the kids. Where does time go during the day. It's only 720 and already 2 kids are at practice at the school. If it wasn't friday then 2 more would be headed to practice as well. Where did the years go. For that matter where did the summer go?
Eve made the Freshman volleyball team. I am so proud of her. She has worked so hard the last year to improve. She tried out last year and just couldn't get enough confidence to play the way we all knew she could. This year she sprained her ankle during tryouts and still continued to finish tryouts. She made the team and to see her smile when she knew she had achieved what she had worked so hard for was an amazing thing. I can't wait to see her play. What I found was interesting is she got in the car and stated that she just needed her confidence to make it. SO TRUE!
We are going on our 35 day of triple digits here in the metroplex. And we aren't talking 100 degree. We are talking 109 and oh yeah yesterday 112. Are you kidding me. Most people know summers in Texas are hot but we very rarely hit this hot. To top it all off the A/C in the car has decided to some days work and some days not too. I find myself talking to the car. So I don't know if the heat is making me delirious or what?!
Alex is finding out he has quite a legacy to live up to in Junior high. Between Eve and Cole he either gets called little Eve or Little Cole. Poor thing. He is 5'2 and only 81 lbs. The football coach informed him that he was built like Eve in 7th grade and they need to get some meat on him so he is built more like Cole. Yeah good luck on that one. No matter what we feed him he still stays the same weight. We went to the Doctor for his shots and the doctor finally said ok it's time to give him extra calories. Not the supplements but make him eat more smoothies with lots of fruits etc to add good calories. Alex was all for that. When we left he matter of factly states ok so go to the store and buy me lots of fruit and then tell the other kids they can't touch it! Pahahaha.... that is funny. For one the food prices are becoming out of this world but to buy the good stuff and tell the other sorry you can't eat it. I am not sure how that will work. That will be the challenge for the next week.
Then you have Eve who is so tired after practice she forgets to eat. Seriously?! She goes to her room and starts chatting on the computer with her friends and then we leave to go somewhere and she's like hmm I am hungry I only had a apple and the protein bar you got me...Cole's quick to respond quite hiding in the room and come sit on the couch with me watching tv you will eat then!!! Oh Man!
Well, I need to be off cleaning. Before my day gets away from me again. Loving life and the craziness of my kids growing up. Sometimes I think Heavenly Father directed me to my new Job on the oncology floor to help me deal with the insane schedule and to remind me how important it is to keep things in perspective and take time with my kids. What a blessing I have in my life to be around these kids.
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