This is what I wake up for. I hear people talk about how bad having teenagers is. Yes we have our moments but these kids make me smile. Remembering the special moments or just the small moments like this morning I was laying in my bed not feeling good and Sebastian comes and lifts the covers and gets in next to me just for a moment. It just made me feel better.

So the other day going to the MRI didn't go well at all! While I am a tad okay a lot not okay with closed in spaces. I have done it before and figured I can do it again. I usually sing in my head every primary song I can remember and whatever church song I can to help me calm down. Well I made it 35 minutes before I felt this overwhelming urge to throw up and pass out all at the same time. I had to stop. I couldn't lay there any longer. They pulled me out of the MRI and sat me up where I began to shake uncontrollably, and couldn't sit up. I felt like I was this close to blacking out. Which since I drove myself would so not be good. I think I freak the tech out a little. The Paramedic they keep on duty took my blood pressure which was crazy high. I don't know if it was the stress of the machine, the symptoms I have been having or what. It eventually came done enough I could leave. I just couldn't finish the MRI. I only had maybe 30 minutes left. I tried laying back down and immediately thought i was going to vomit. Great!. I have an appointment on Monday needed to have the results of this to be able to know what the heck is going on. But now I have to go back on Tuesday preferably drugged so I can finish it.

I left the MRI quite worried and upset. I went by Michelle's house to check my pressure again. While I was there I received a priesthood blessing from my nephew. I can't explain the feeling you get during those blessings. I know that eventually I will be okay. Just not going to be today. I was told that my prayers were heard and would be fulfilled. I have to remember those are not on my time though. So instead when I feel bad I make myself get up put my face on and try to do everyday life.