Time

  When your kids are young and life is crazy you never think about when they start to leave the house. You at times may wish for the relaxation of the craziness. Time didn't seem to move at the speed of light. As they grew you start to see the attitudes of teenagers and want to pull your hair out. Then the time starts to go faster. The school year seems to fly by. As they reach college and adulthood time seems to go in a blink of an eye. I know that God gave me that last 6 weeks of 2016. He gave me all my children home for the holidays. He gave me that time he knew I desperately longed for. He answered my prayers by giving us the time as a family to play games almost every night , to laugh, cry, sing with each other and grow as a family. He knew our family was going to need that. But I truly believe he answered the prayers of my heart.

   I have been extremely weepy eyed lately. Emotional more than normal. Asj asked me the other night if there was something bothering me. At that moment there was but now I realize I have become more sensitive the closer it is for M to leave. He will be leaving 2 weeks from tomorrow. I am totally excited for him. I know this is where Heavenly Father needs him to be. I know this is where he needs to be. I know that this young man/adult has some amazing things to offer. But man the more I think about it the more I realize how much I am going to miss his crazy sense of humor, his hugs and his wisdom. He has such an amazing heart for caring for people. I can't imagine not having him around for 2 years. I know once he is in the field it will go quickly.

  So now I have written that down and had my moment of pity I will try and remind myself that it is okay if we don't get everything done that I wanted before he leaves. He knows we love him even if we were never able to do a family vacation before he left. That everytime I planned a family game night something happened to stop it. What he will be doing for the next 2 years is bigger than that. We have seen some blessings come our way with friends offering to help get him out the door. We can never express the tender mercies those who have helped have been.