As long as I keep running and don't stop to think about it I am okay. But as  as I am in a quiet moment the reality of how grown up my kids are getting blows me away. I have been looking at pictures from when they were little kids. There personalities shown through even then. Wish I had taken the time to really appreciate those times.

Everyone seems to be in such a hurry to see the next milestone that we forget that those times only happen once. All of a sudden they are all grown up with facial hair, talking about girls, college , missions Or for Eve Boys, colleges, clothes, and possibly a mission. WHERE DID THAT TIME GO?

Maybe it is hitting me harder with Cole being the first to leave the house. We went Saturday to see Meet the Mormons at the movies. One of the stories was a mom sending off her son to serve a mission. It hit so close to home with Cole leaving in 2 days. But she said something that hit close to my heart. Heavenly Father only loaned her son to her and it was time to give him back for a little bit to serve the LORD.

Never thought of it that way. So as hard as it seems it will be it will be the best thing for him to go and see how his service to others is so important in life. That being willing to serve the lord and those around you without expecting anything in return is what makes the world so much better.


We went and took family pictures this last weekend which turned out great. Eve's boyfriend took the family ones and everyone else took a turn taking them of each other. Looking at the pictures how blessed I feel that the Lord felt I could take care of these special kids.

At Cole's farewell open house everyone kept asking how I was doing. Are you crying yet?  I had been doing pretty good till last  night. I am sure I will have my moments. I sure am going to miss this kid of mine. I keep reminding myself that his journey is going to be amazing and we as a family get to be along for the ride.

A couple of people showed up last night that I was so happy to see. My Aunt Shirley and cousin and her daughter came. Then the kids 4th grade teacher came to see Cole. None of them are members and it was wonderful to see the support from those outside church.

Lots to do today I should go wake Cole up so he can get going. I figured let him sleep in a little before he is on a tight schedule.