I knew this was going to be hard but had no idea how hard. Tomorrow will be 1 week of Cole being gone. I am so happy for him and know that this is where he should be. And most the time I am good. But it is the little things that catch me. I past an antique mall today and thought about him.
We received his first e-mail and he loves it. He loves his companions (he has 2) Which I am so so happy. It's times like tonight I cooked dinner and nobody really ate because we were all going in ten different ways. He would have come in and made a big deal about eating. Tonight getting ready for scripture and prayer we sat around talking about what we had going on and I looked around and it just was weird to not see him sitting there.
I guess there will be many times that this will be happening. I know it would be that way if he was off at school. But maybe it is just the idea that I have to wait a week to hear from him. I am trying to remind myself that I need to enjoy the e-mails while I can. That there maybe weeks that we may not hear from him when he is in the field.
I am trying not to show my kids that I am struggling. The weird thing is my other kids have taken on certain aspects of his personality very strongly the last week. I can't figure out if he talked to them about doing things around the house the way he did to help or if they always did it and I never gave them credit or I have just been more focused on his traits the last couple of months that I forgot they did this too. I am a lucky lady.
other updates; Sebastian made 9/10 all region. I am so proud of his hard work to make it. Alex has Cross Country district meet tomorrow.
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