Week long struggle ended with blessings.

 I have been wanting to sit down and put my feelings down but just can't seem to always find the time. Last week was one of the hardest weeks this year. Yes, I know it's only January. S-started having issues with his blood pressure. At 16 very fit who has blood pressure issue? The doctor ran all kinds of blood work. He is deficient in B12/Vit D and some other issues. But still couldn't find why blood pressure. We managed to get into a cardiologist on Friday. Testing done there found no issues with his heart. Which is good but still frustrating. Rechecked his blood work found his platelets weren't in the toilet anymore. Which was a relief. Still no answers waiting on more testing for his kidneys etc. In the meantime he is being a trooper and following a very strict 2000 sodium diet.

I really didn't think that week could get any harder. I spoke to soon. As a parent you would do anything to protect your child. Realization you can't truly protect them from the evil in the world has occurred this year. But this week speaking to E and knowing she was so far away and struggling with the demmons that come from suffering a trauma. I wanted to snap my fingers and have her home in the safety net of our house , me her brothers, the dog. Place where we could help her try and find peace. It's funny (well not really) how when things happen you realize who your real friends are. This is something she is finding out. Which totally and completely suck to think the person that is your best friend is so shallow and not really your friend at all. I laid in bed one night texting back and forth with her. Such an extreme low and just wanting to bring her home. The next day it got worse.  I finally was like you are coming home! Pack you bags and drive home. She agreed and after closing some business there is home. We will go get the last little bit of things this weekend.

The best place to find peace is the Temple. I had planned on going with my mom, sister and M. on Saturday. Friday night as I waited on E to get in I laid in my bed with this massive migraine. She got home and said mom my head hurts. I pulled back the covers patted the bed and said some join me and my headache. Gave her some peppermint oil and we talked a little and she was able to sleep. And I was able to feel comfort that she was at least safe at home.

I missed the temple the next day. Still couldn't shake the headache or the incredibly bad week at the house. I truly feel Heavenly Father knows us better than we give him credit for. The last couple of weeks have really just brought my stress level to a new high and made me question my ability to help my kids get through life. As I was trying to convince myself to go to my sisters night out I felt prompted that I needed to check the mailbox first. This was in the mailbox!!!

Quicker than you can even imagine we gathered at the house. M- and all his siblings here and C via facetime. What an exciting blessing this was. Just what we needed to remember God has such control in our lives.