This kid has taught me more in the last couple of months than I ever thought possible to learn from my own child. Let me start this by saying I have 5 amazing children. I have been very blessed. Right now in our lives he is at a time in his life that is dominating our lives with time and prayers and love in so many ways. And bringing so many blessings into our lives I can't even begin to explain.
Cole has had a big year this year. Coming off a big summer. He is a senior this year Last summer he went to the Junior Olympics which was a huge dream of his and placed 16th in the Nation in 110 hurdles and struggled with the idea of if he made finals whether he would run with it being Sunday. I truly think he would of refused to run. He started his Senior year as Class President where all his class mates knew what he stood for.Knew he didn't party, drink, drugs, sex and that wasn't always the easiest thing to be. He picked up running Cross country with hopes of improving his running to make it to state for hurdles. By the end of that season he had injured his foot. This was possibly a season ending injury. He had to hold off running from Oct- March. During this time as a mom I was worried more about how this was going to affect his chances for scholarships etc. But for him it changed his perspective on his importance of running and his mission. Little did I know this was a blessing in his life. Track season began and he finished his season at Regionals placing 6th. I watched him struggle with working his way back but building his spiritual trust with the Lord and what was truly important to him and that was the work with the Lord.
As he prepared for Regionals our family including his siblings knew of his goal since he was a freshman to go to State and they made a promise to Heavenly Father that they would do certain things if he could go. So this was a learning and teaching experience for them and myself on remembering the will of the Lord isn't always what is best for us. No matter how hard we have worked for something or how bad we want something. Sometimes, our needs and wants don't match what Heavenly Father knows we truly need in our lives. This was a truly testimony building lesson for everyone. Also , a confidence builder for him.
This picture was taken right after Cole pushed send on his Mission paperwork. After seeing his face I knew in deepest part of my heart that he is to be serving the Lord. How could anyone deny that when you see how happy he looks in this picture. Right after that he says" mom my heart is pounding so hard. Is this what it feels to make a big decision?" Oh is it. I am so thankful I was there to witness that look. The day he put on his papers was 90 days out from his send date. Well we didn't do the math and it is the week that 2 of his siblings are out of town. I was oh Cole we can't do that. They are gonna want to say good bye. He simply says Mom have faith.. Heavenly Father knows what our family needs. He tells me this and then says but mom you know our family better than me so you decide. The bishop can change the date you let him know if he needs to change it. He gets out of the car to leave town. I sit in the car and drive back to church thinking about what he said to me. Wow, how do I argue with his logic. I have to trust his faith and know that if his leave date is during that time that the Lord must really need him at that time. He met with the Stake President yesterday. So papers are officially submitted. Now we wait for the Call!
As time goes on I am finding my faith growing, my knowledge on the gospel and my love for the savior growing As I walk in and see my son studying so diligently his scriptures after his brothers are asleep or writing in his journal, or leading the discussion at family scriptures, and just encouraging us as family to be better as a family or more christlike I see him preparing and know that when the Lord calls him he will be ready. I was so worried about sending my baby out there into the world alone. When I forgot that he really isn't alone at all. He won't have me but he will have something so much better. He will have his Heavenly Father who could as for more.
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