Wondering why I seem to worry more about my kids as they sleep than I have in years. We have our nightly routine going again. After months of chaos. We have scripture and prayer then the little boys brush teeth etc. Eventually the older ones follow suit behind them.
When I finally make it to bed I have to check on each one of them. I tuck them in and make sure everyone is safe in their beds. You remember when you had a baby and they would be sleeping so quietly you would just check make sure they really were breathing. That is now the routine I am in now. And mine haven't been babies for years. Call me crazy..Even with the drama of teenage kids and the attitudes that go with it. I have to just check on them. Or I can't sleep. no lie. Is there something wrong with me..
I haven't quite figured out if it is with everything that has gone on over the last couple of years with several of them having health issues or me working nights now. Or just Plain silliness. No matter what it is my kids have come to expect it. Especially my older ones that realize I am coming in to say goodnight. They seem to get this smirk on their faces and go back to sleep.
There has been alot of drama around here the last couple of days and is making me rethink alot of things. I am so blessed to have the 5 wonderful kids to check on at night. I think that I forget sometimes how big of a blessing God has given me and how big of a resposiblity he gave me.
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I don't think it's silly. I do it every night. I've never stopped...I just can't. I do have issues with OCD and anxiety though, so I may not be the best one to ask ;) It is funny how the older ones smirk and go back to bed. Adam's usually asleep by the time I get to him, but when he is half awake, he looks a little confused, then smiles and goes back to sleep. So funny!!!!
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