Can't believe it has been so long since I posted. Things have been quite busy around here. We had a car accident on April 17th. Didn't realize it was going to be as big of a deal as it has been.
With any car accident it shakes you up. Well Alex ended up with a concusion which makes his 3rd in a year. This worries me and the Pediatrician. We started him in Physical therapy which has been a blessing. She has found many reasons he is still hurting and is helping him. Eve just started Physical therapy as well. Just one visit has made a huge difference with her. I think she is starting to realize how life can be so good when you don't have to deal with headaches all the time. I developed some inflamation around the sciatic nerve and they put me on steroids. Oh heavens they did a number on me and my body. They gave me heart palpitations, chest pain and shot my blood pressure up to stroke level. I was so glad I was working with Zandra that night when it all came to a head at work. It took a couple of days to get it out of my system but I am feeling much better
Work is work right. We are working hard as ever but have found a new strength with each other. We call it our circle. We have all become such good friends. Which is great. When you are in the middle of an emergency you need to know you can trust them. We had a patient go down hill really fast the other night. I was charge and was called into the room from our secretary who could see her heart rate dropping on the monitor. This sweet lady quickly went from bad to worse. As I got to her room Zandra was leaving to go get supplies as I entered she was talking saying how dizzy she felt then blood came out everywhere and she quite talking. We called a rapid response and before we knew it we lost her pulse as well. Code blue was called. Everyone kicked in gear. Myself and the PCT started chest compressions as the crash cart was roled in we were able to hook her up to the monitor. Everyone seemed to just take a position and work together. I have to thank Heavenly father for giving us the knowledge and the ability to help bring her back. As the code team arrived we were just finding her pulse and realizing where we were at. I don't know if I can explain to anyone the feeling the overwhelming feeling of this situation. I had just been in there talking to her about her sweet children that had dropped everything to be with her in the hospital. And then having to see them watch as their sweet mom started to lose her fight and to see them in despair. And being able to hold their hand and tell them that she was ok. That we had a heartbeat and she was awake.
One of the PCT said she was having a hard time not crying. We simply explained that its ok to cry. That sometimes the family needs to see we care that much. I know I was in tears as I went to them and spoke with them. Sometimes we get close to certain families and patients. Not really knowing why but we just build that connection and to almost lose them is like losing a friend or family.
Every night on my way to work I pray that as a nurse or as charge I will know what each patient or nurse may need to keep everyone well and safe. At times this job you feel inadequate to be a nurse especially in charge. I know the job I do is nothing short of having the guidance of Heavenly Father watching over me and leading me. I know I not only never could have made it through nursing school let alone run the floor at night with the challenges that arise there. I was so thankful to have my friends surrounding me and knowing those nurses also have that same prayer in their hearts every night as well.
I know this post is all over the place. It's been almost a month since I posted and so many little things have happened. But the one big thing is I truly am learning to let go. Leave things in God's hands and let him guide us to where we are suppose to be. To truly trust in him that his plans for my family are just a matter of me having faith. That even with the stresses of teenagers things will still be ok.
One of the ways I have been trying to get this point across to my kids of how much I love them and no matter what will always love them is reading this book to them. Love you forever! Along with scriptures I started to read it to them..
It's a wonderful book I used to read to them when they were little. It was one of those books that stays in your head.
" I love you forever"
I'll love you forever,
I'll like you for always,
As long as I am living my baby you will be!
Someone thought they would be funny and hide the book hmm need to find it. Silly kids.
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