Family!

Today has been one of those days with ups and downs. I will start with what is weighing on my heart the most. I took Eve, Alex and Sebastian to go see my Aunt Shirley at the hospital in Fort Worth tonight. I knew she was going to be scheduled for surgery just didn't know when. I went with my mom the other night to see her.Sebastian had wanted to go with us then and I told him no I was afraid she would be in too much pain to have company. When I told her he wanted to come and I didn't bring him she looked disappointed. So I promised to bring him back.

I offered all my kids the opportunity to go. But Malcolm and Cole just couldn't handle seeing anyone else in the hospital or not well. I think too many memories of the last time they saw my grandfather Granddy in November before he died. I had been having this overwhelming feeling I needed to go see her again. I had told my mom that I felt that before Uncle James passed away. I would be in the area and think about going to see him and say no he probably is in physical therapy now etc. Excuse after Excuse. Thinking I would have more time to sit and listen to his stories. I didn't. So I wasn't going to ignore the promptings this time.
We didn't get to stay very long tonight I think around 30-45 min. But while we were there all of a sudden Alex started to pout. My cousin Julia and I thought he was playing around because he was trying to get more chocolate from her. But a few minutes later he was sitting on the floor of her room and Sebastian says why is Alex crying what's wrong with him? I had him come sit on my lap and he just started balling. Full blown hard Crying. Aunt Shirley had just gotten a call from Aunt Judy who is fighting Cancer. So as they talked I tried to calm him. Aunt shirley turned the phone over to Julia and realized Alex was crying. She asked why and told him to come love on her. He leaned over the bed and just layed his head on her chest and cried. As she told him she knew God was going to take care of her and that is why she wasn't worried. It was a very sweet but surreal moment. She called him Tender hearted. Some would have said emotional. But by her saying Tender hearted it made him feel like it was ok to be crying.

It was all I could do not to cry. I realize how serious her procedure is tomorrow and things could turn out. She is so confident that she prayed that the Lord would open and close the doors she needed to go through. And she went with those doors. When she saw me the other night. She said I love you. I said I love you too. She looked at me holding my hand and said. No, Heather I really do love you. I paused and said I know. All I can do is have the trust she does in the Lord and pray if it is his will she will be ok. She has a long road ahead of her. She will have surgery tomorrow to deflate her lung so they can fix 3 vertebrae in her back remove residuals from a prior surgery that made it worse and rebuild her vertebrae. Then in a couple of days she will have phase 2 to reinforce it from the back.

Ok now that I have released that. Eve has had a Migraine and it was one of her really bad ones. I hate it they are just like the ones I had when I was growing up and now. They get so bad that you just pray your going to throw up so it will go away. Several hours later and a lot of yelling at the boys to be quiet she finally threw up and now she is sleeping. My poor little girl. Of all the things I passed on.

We got word today the excepted the application on the house to rent. We were told Friday after turning it in the realtor said it was more than likely a go. But finally around 5pm she called and said we are good. Thank heavens one less thing for me to worry about. It keeps Malcolm in the high school he was planning on attending, but changes everyone else. Sebastian is not happy at all. He does not want to leave his friends. I will be checking on transfers. Unfortunately, Mansfield and transfer don't mix. So we will see.

I will post a picture of the house later. The only one I have shows the yard in a crisis. Now all I have to do is PACK! Did I say I hate moving. It not the new place deal it is the idea of packing and unpacking etc. At least the new place has more space and a garage. No it will not be full of boxes forever.
Well I need to go to bed. I have been so busy and haven't been sleeping so hopefully with one less thing weighing on my mind I will be able to sleep.