Yesterday was a busy day. Yet some how relaxing. If it can be both. I was on call so I saw a patient or two. Which you would think that driving a long distance to her house would be horrible. But it is so relaxing driving on the open road and looking at the country. Living in the city surrounded by buildings with very little open space seeing nature is well shall I say COOL!
Malcolm and Cole have decided they enjoy tennis. So on Saturdays they have made it a weekly event to play tennis with their friends.

This has given me an opportunity to spend time just with Eve, Sebastian and Alex. Entertaining and spending time with 3 is sometimes much easier than trying to find something they all want to do. Today we went to six flags. I bought season passes last christmas so we would have something cheap to do all year. I thought yesterday would be perfect.
There is something about six flags the smells, rides etc that waken up memories I haven't thought about in years. Since we lived in this area basicly my whole life we went to six flags quit a bit. 3 out of 6 kids worked there at one point. We spent one summer with a family in our ward that consisted of boys and ours of girls and went alot. Then there were the dates there as a teenager. Some I would love to forget. lol I guess I am hoping that my kids will develop memories of summers spent there. We had passes several years ago and they talk about it alot. Hence the passes again.

I have to say I am very blessed with the children I have. Especially my older ones who babysit for me. ( and they don't get paid) Malcolm and Cole are always telling me that I need to get out spend some time away from all of them. I don't know if this is good or not. But they are so sweet when I asked them to babysit one always say sure. Maybe this will carry over to adults and fatherhood and be always willing and happy to watch the kids so their wives can have girls night out.
That leads me up to Last night events. I went to GNO at sweet tomatoes. I had so much fun. I almost forget how much fun adults can be. Even though the night was great it made it harder for me to make the decision I am trying to make.

I don't know how many people even realize my future plans. I don't even think all of my family knows yet. SO hey family here it is. Do decision are made yet but I have been praying alot about the fork in the road we have in our lives. It seems overwhelming at times especially being the one deciding it for my family by myself. My lease is up the end of May. So I have been trying to decide where we are moving. Next year I will have kids in 4 different schools. Try and find a house with that critiria. Yeah right! I have been looking at Malcolm starts high school in the fall. They all have their friends and I hate to pull any of them away from them. So as a family we have been talking about the possibilities of moving here in the area or moving down to Katy. Katy came up because my mom was telling me about how much she loved being down there and the cost of houses for what you get is great. Well I started checking just for the heck of it. That eventually led to us as a family talking about it. Some were really excited others not so much. As we have prayed things have started to change. Attitudes have changed. Those most resitant against change have softened. Whether it is staying in the area or moving away everyone is ok with changing school. Wow that rarely happens in my household. I decided before I went any farther I needed to ask my ex-husband per divorce degree I can't leave the area without his permission. Stinks huh! So as we prayed I finally asked him. He didn't want to have the conversation the day I called. Several days later I spoke to him and his response.... are you ready for this..... He said whatever is going to be the best for you and the kids. I about fell out of my seat. So what does this mean???? Is this showing me maybe I do need to research Katy a little more? I am fortunate enough that I know whereever i decide to go I can find a job. Being a nurse you are always needed. Ugh... I am struggling at the idea of change. I think it is harder for me than my kids.
Another dilemma is I know that after I move there yes there will be some family there. But the idea is it may not stay that way. Eventually I believe Adam and Sonia want to move back here. And for me this is a long term move away from my family. I figure wherever we move I am looking at being there until Sebastian graduates. Due to starting in the fall I will always have someone in high school until then. And Malcolm made me promise that wherever we move he will do all his years in high school there.
Oh yeah to really add to things I got a call to meet with someone from one of the counselors in my new ward. HMMM...
I know I have just gone on and on but I am hoping putting this on paper will help me figure it out. Oh and did everyone hear the prayer to open morning session this morning. Made me really feel like he was helping me out with asking the lord to help us that are seeking his will to be answered. Yeah I know I am not the only one seeking but just made it more personal.