There are days that I totally understand the direction Myself and my family are going then times when everything seems to turn upside down in an instant. I have been playing with the idea of changing jobs off and on for several months. I don't know it has more to do with not really knowing how long this company can stay a float or just wanting something with more job security. The problem is every time I would start to look. I would tell myself even with all the extra junk that gets dumped on you being the only RN. You have it good. I make my own hours. I can plan my day with patients in the morning or afternoon etc. And if I am sick I just move patients around and never call in sick. WOW! Seriously why look anywhere else? Several months ago I put in an application for a school nurse in a local school. Had an interview in early June. Never heard anything else. I knew they had to wait for nurses to put their notices in by July. So I kinda put in the back of my head and didn't think anything else.
I had planned out the next 6 month budget. How I was going to work at the hospital to save extra money to put up etc. Then today on my way home from work I get a call that turns everything upside down. Now don't get me wrong. It was a good thing just a shock. I was offered the Nursing job in a local elementary school. I know I threw the woman off because I told her I wanted to think about it and call her in the morning. I had basicly talked myself out of wanting this job over the last month. Part of it was it is less money than I make now. Seriously, who would quit a job and change to make less money? Me? I called my bouncing board (my sister Michelle) and said ok this, she would respond with something else. It just gave me a chance to talk it out.
Let me say I HATE CHANGE!!! Even when I know it is good I HATE IT! There are so many pros and cons to this. I have been very blessed to be able to have a flexible schedule to spend alot of time at my kids schools. Picking the younger boys up this spring was great. I gave me time to spend with them before the older ones got home. I did the whole room mom thing for all of them. Now with this job things will be different. I wouldn't have that luxury. But I would have Summers off, weekends off, Christmas holiday off. Etc. So as you could see there has been so much to think about. I get to work the hospital tonight and I needed to take a nap. Before I did. I ran the numbers, talk to the kids. I finally before laying down turned it all over to Heavenly Father. Not thinking I would really have an answer before tomorrow.
I got up and just knew. For me that is rare. I will rationalize what I know the answer to be to not so much question the answer but make sure that is really what I need to do. Not this time.
One of my nurses called about a patient after I had gotten up. I was telling her about the job and that I was going to take the job. But i found myself pointing out the negative of the job. Then like a TON of bricks someone was telling me your being stupid. Can't you see the blessing that will come with this change.
I now can see them. I asked Heavenly Father to help me if this was his will to make it work financially. I know it will. It will just reminding myself of the good and not the bad and remembering he always has a way for us.
So in comes the upside down moment. I have to redo the next 6 months of planning and plan for the difference in the time schedule of Alex and Sebastian and my time I have to be at the school. The cool thing is the school is only 13 miles from my house. You can't beat that. Well I guess you can but with this district it is the next city over so it could be a lot farther. It is amazing how Heavenly Father works when you least expect it.
Off to do family home evening before I go to work. Sebastian has the lesson so it should be fun.
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