To be or not to be....

I started out the week talking about savoring every moment we have with our kids. As I type I listen to arguments about the xbox. Who thought up video games? Anyways not what I was getting on here to talk about. I was talking to some coworkers today and they mentioned that women that just want to stay home and have kids and raise a family something was wrong with them. That there wasn't anyone like that really.

HOLD THE PHONE!!! I informed them I would go in a heart beat to be a stay at home mom with my kids. They tried to tell me that kids need other kids etc. Yeah ok but really if a women/man decides to stay home instead of working that means they didn't get loved etc. WHATEVER MAJOR LOSER!!! That was what was running through my head. Everyone has their own life goals. Oh yeah now I remember where the subject came from. One of them said a friend told them they wouldn't feel complete if they didn't have a child. This person was wanting one and hadn't had one. hmm. I tried to explain some girls grow up saying I want to be a mommy. And nothing is wrong with that. Unfortunately, life doesn't deal us all those cards and some of us have to work. And some make the choice to work. I can't say either is wrong.

I personally feel that I missed out on so much because I had to work to support my kids. Yet God made sure that I saw the good in it and showed my kids that. But man that really got me.

I have officially have seen 26 patients in 3 days. I will see 3 tomorrow. yes. Then I will be done. I had hoped to see everyone by the end of today. Just didn't happen. But I am pretty current on paperwork which is good. I won't be stressed this weekend.
Malcolm's body sure must think it is funny. We have had several issues where I thought I was going to take him on in to Cooks. But then his heart would go back to normal. This morning his heart jumped as he was waiting on a ride to seminary. I sent him anyways because he usually has been staying in it for only a few minutes. So he text me on his way to school after seminary saying it was still going on. He starts complaining of shortness of breath and chest pain. Ok not good. So I tell him to go to the nurse and I would be on my way. I get mom(grandma) out of bed to take Sebastian and Alex to school so I can go get Malcolm. But guess what I can't find my stinkin keys. Yes that is what I am saying. UGH> I could tell Eve had used them since her coat was so nicely placed on the floor of the entry(don't you love kids) and it had been in the trunk. So where in the world were my keys.. I finally found them(on the air hockey table) and raced up to the school. He had come out of the problem in the mean time so what do I do? I take him home so I can have easier access to him and check him out the rest of the week as being sick. Being up and walking stairs etc is too much for him. I put him on bedrest... as much as you can with a 15 yr old. He starts to feel better I run to see a couple of patients after watching him for a couple of hours. All day nothing to bad so we will see. I thought for sure he would be having more problems then this. Maybe the Lord is answering my prayers knowing I needed to finish my work week early.
So far so good tonight. I think that is good. The doctor said it would be better for him to be firing fast on his own than the doctors having to cause it to happen. Hmm catch 22 huh...

Work is getting a little intense. They have admitted something like 6 patients this week luckily the office has a couple of nurses that work PRN and they did the admits. Thank heavens I would have been really stressing. But the problem is only 2 nurses to see 70+ patients in one week. hmmm and like today I went to dallas, Cleburne and burleson. While the other nurse went to Keller, Southlake, bedford, and fort worth. That is a whole lot of driving.

I better go fix dinner and start the nightly duties.